As a kid I just loved hindi movies and I used to wonder why I loved them so much.
Well they always had a guy and girl who would fall in love ,sing songs,run around and then have lot of crazy fights with their family .At the end no matter what happens they will get married happily with lots of songs and fun in the background.
That was the perfect way it had to end and that was the way every love story would end.A perfect fantasy I had as a teenager that someday I would become a big girl and have a hindi movie story with me.
And then I grew up to be a tomboy and life was full of fun with all the boys around .You just cannot think of falling in love when you are having the ball of your lifetime with all the attention !
And then you grow up out of school ready for college and now you are thinking -Yes it is the time to fall in love.All the movies you saw were going to just about come true because the love stories  always happened in college.Usually most of them used to happen in the degree colleges but of course it will happen in engineering college too!
Turning 18 was like hyped so very much by everyone -the 'adult' terminology associated with it and I was in college already.
It would be the time that  I would finally get to vote-looked like I almost had a say in the government of India now.Now that was a really very big decision that I could take as an 18 year old- in fact the biggest one that I could ever think of.I started thinking of what else I could do as an adult.Well there was the driving license that I was craving for and beyond that I could think of nothing else.
Well now I was in the biggest soup since I had landed in a college where I was almost an alien!
Everyone were different there and I was like out of the place.I was just uprooted from the happening club to the hell.That was the exaggerated feeling I got after joining college.There was nothing at all happening in the college except for boring classes and lots of local language.
I was kind of getting lonely but somewhere I started building a castle of my own.
There were two or three hindi movie heros of my movies in my college but well they did not seem like they could sing songs and dance with me the way I had imagined.
So I almost gave up about love stories in college .Love can happen only  in the city and not in villages-I realised that then.So the goal is to get out of this college as soon as possible and find that hero.
I was having the best time ever now in college while I was in class building castle of my dreams.
I am back in bangalore, earning and I find a hero in my office .He comes to me and falls on his knees and brings me roses ,proposes me.Then we go around singing songs and go for movies and shopping.Finally on a big day after many many years - I am happily married.
And these  day dreams would go on in and out and like never before the time flies at a super sonic speed and I am done with the four years of my college life with good grades and a campus placement.
I am super happy to join the job .It was Chennai but never mind -I was happier to get out of this place.
And then I saw many heros and I knew it was the time to fall in love.And slowly I started falling and  falling in love.It neve seem to end.It looked like I was  falling in some well and then would be stuck there and would not be ever able to come out.Gosh-I did not even know swimming at that time.

I knew I could sing hindi songs now and dance around.I was happier than what I was before.
I was not getting proper sleep ,I was not hungry anymore.There were chemicals flowing in my head and in my body.I swear I never knew that part of the love story.If I had known -I would have for sure imagined while in my classes how the chemical formulas would have been formed and which would have been the paths that they would traverse.
I was just building bigger castles now but this time the foundation was stronger and real.
I started having dreams in the night too .Finally the dream that I was dreaming as a teenager had come true.I knew it was for real and there was nothing more bigger and happier than the big fall.
People say there is no such thing as perfect and I knew they were lying-the perfection is right here.
Perfection is in love -the big fall.You fall to perfection.You deny in perfection.You dream in perfection.You love perfection.You seem to be perfect.
That is what it is all about the big fall.It makes you fall for yourself-the perfect you!